We are all getting old. Our parents are getting old. To see your parents slowly leave you, slowly stopping to be who they were to transform in to this persons that we need to excuse because "they are old" has to be one of the hardest things to do. We don't even see them leaving us, one day we just realize that they are taking longer to do this, or forgetting things, or are just not them. Another day and they are gone.
We want to grow up, we want to move on, there is so many thing that we want, and we forget that they are getting older, that they will need us more, we will never be truly free.
We want to be free so bad, but it is a state of mind and our mind is the only thing that can really be free, everything else is conditioned. Some of us never want to be "free" of there parents, it's a way. Others can't wait to leave, it's another way. Either way you will regret it. Eventually we will all regret it. We will get wiser, we will understand them better, we will turn into versions of them, and inevitably we will regret never leaving or never staying. Guilt will touch us all.
We are in such a rush to leave. Can't say that i'm in a rush to regret it. But. It will always be my regret. My consequences of my choices. That guilt is a blessing if you compare it with the guilt of having lived your life trough someone else's choices.
We all change. We all grow, maybe we never stop growing. And when we stop growing we help others grow. I hope the lessons of patience, kindness and hope are not going to waste. Old people exist in every age, some of them are 18 others are 80. Age is a passport for nothing (except a seat in the bus), take it from the youngest child.
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