We have misplaced a number of things. Keys are never where they should. You call yourself just so you can find that your phone is making a break for it. Some socks have different aspirations in life and just leave you.
Can you misplace yourself?
Maybe sometimes you also lose yourself, can you lose something that is always with you? Maybe you just put parts of who you are under bright things, so you can't see them anymore. If you are so full of bright things inside can it be bad? You never lose them, but they are misplaced. Those type of things, the things that define you, they need to be used or else they slowly fade away, like a painting in the sun until you are left with only the memory of who you were.
Why would you chose to hide parts of you? To not deal with them? Maybe sometimes they are just like extra weight in a sinking boat, you need to trow them away in order to stay afloat. Maybe you can only operate the basic functions to survive, to stay sane.
When your world comes crashing down and you have nothing to hold on, you come crashing down with it. And when you crash, you must return to basic. Trust the people around you to take care of you, to influence you to move in the right direction. They are not you. You pic up pieces of other people to try to fix yourself. "You" becomes an obsolete description, is hallow. Rebuilding yourself is hard, is making hard choices everyday, is choosing not to do the easy thing over and over again. Is exhausting. Is scary to thing that it could happen again. That you could loose everything that you are. Everyday courage is still one of the most beautiful things in the world.
If you ever find yourself lost, so deeply lost that you don't even notice that you are loosing yourself, find the people who will make you go forward, surround yourself with people who will make you happier and better. Every event has a lesson to be learned. Learn how to rebuild yourself and you will never be completely lost again.
Now we just need to find the socks.
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