You can't hide who you are in the small gestures. You can fake everything in the big ones, you can force yourself to have grand gestures of kindness and generosity and be neither of those things. In the small things you read the truth. One time I heard that love is in the little things.
You show your love in the small things, those instinctual gestures, the things you do without thinking about it If you are not thinking and you still make an act of love, that is the sign that it has routes inside of you that it is a part of who you are. Sometimes the little things are so little that you can hardly see them, and you just have to believe that they are there. You have to Trust.
Trusting is one of the hardest things to do. If you think about it too much it starts to quiver and to be less real. It has to be attached to something or else you can't trust someone. It is an act of love. Love is the fuel of trust. All types of love.
You can't trust for ever if you have nothing to love, if the concept of love is unreal or just slowly getting lost. Love yourself in order to trust your judgement, to trust your decisions. When you start questioning your decisions have you lost some love for yourself? Maybe you are just loving yourself even more in order to make better decisions in the future, so better things can come. Maybe you lost some respect for yourself for making such a bad decision, and you love yourself a little less.
When you have nothing, when you are living on sweet nothings, trusting is so hard. Is exhausting. Is a weigh slowly pulling you down, eventually you need to cut it of before you drown. The little things make trusting so easy. When you are loved trust is like a breeze, you can feel it and you know it's there although you can't really grasp it.
Trust is whatever you want it to be. Trusting in someone is believing that the person you trust won't hurt you, that they won't bring you pain. How they could bring you pain and where you allow them to hurt you is up to you.
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